1.01.2010
 
wow
I booted up my old crappy computer today and saw this link in the bookmarks. It's been a stinking long time since I've posted here. But that's ok. I actually have something to post about this time!

Ever since the beginning of this site, I'm pretty sure I've filled it with dejected thoughts and broken dreams. This is no longer the case. I'm here to rejoice in the Lord and his unbelievable blessings! As of this writing, I am blessed beyond my wildest dreams. [of course I've always been blessed with way way more than I ever deserved, but never actually acknowledged it] The last month and a half or so have been the most amazing of my life. A few years back some relationships ended badly and left me in a place where I was ready to call it quits on dating for good. I actually did call it quits and went over two years without going on a date. I am so indescribably glad I waited on the Lord's timing. To put it simply, I met a girl. [well, a woman actually] Let me just say that God stinking knows what He's doing! If I had gone with my way of doing things, nothing would have worked out. But I [somehow] waited. And holy crap was it worth the wait! He has blessed me! Beyond anything I could ever imagine! I've got a new best friend who is so sweet to me that I keep thinking I'm gonna wake up from a dream! It's unbelievable! I now understand being super excited at the possibility of spending the rest of my life with someone!

-dave


posted by dave @ 4:30 PM


10.26.2008
 

God is so good
God is so good
God is so good
He's so good to me

[and my friends]

I can't believe it has been almost a year since the last post here. This year has just flown by I guess. My stupid car hasn't moved, I haven't really accomplished much in the way of anything, but you know what? It's ok. My life isn't so bad. God is very very good to me. [and my friends] It's high time I started remembering that. And maybe doing something about it.


posted by dave @ 6:55 AM


11.04.2007
 
nothin profound here.
Not much happening around here these days. That'd be my fault though. Still reorganizing my life. Kindof a long project. Sposta be the first snow on Tuesday. That should be cool. [weather is always a good subject to change to, everybody knows something about that.] I sure am enjoying my Autumn. It's my favorite season. By far. How can anything compare to the beauty of the colors? Well, I suppose the snow on the bare trees is a close second. 'Course then there's the rolling prairies in the Summer. When was the last time you just went for a walk? I did that today. It was pretty cool. Trying to clear my mind and put stuff into a better perspective, I walked around for about an hour. The scenery at my Aunt's house is interesting. The trees and everything are so pretty, but peppered into the beauty is the remains of all my projects out there. A time line of the last ten years of my life can be found out there. There's junk back there dating back to junior high. The collapsed fort from early high school. The riding lawnmower with the flame job from senior year. The Dart from my college years. Part of me wants to pick up and move my life somewhere far away, leaving all that back here. Go live in the hills out west somewhere. Have myself a yellow lab to ride in my beat up old pickup on the dirt roads. The other part of me wants to go through all the junk lying everywhere in my life and fix it all, as if that will change the direction of my future. Maybe if I was busy fixing things and being constructive, I would be distracted from something. I'm not really sure what I'm trying to distract myself from. I must be doing a pretty good job. Seems I'm just killing time till I die. I need something to do. Why should my life follow the formula for lives? Seems like I should be out in the world by now, not living in my parents' basement accompishing nothing. I think all it comes down to is that I need a place to call my own. Hah, yeah, I'll get right on that.


posted by dave @ 9:06 PM


9.26.2007
 
in search of a get-holy-quick scheme
Some days I wish I knew what the Lord has in store for me. I find myself anxiously anticipating my future. I know in my mind that it isn't God's desire for me to plan out my entire future, or to know much about it. Some days I think I have it all down, I know in what direction everything is headed. But then God's like no, not even close, just be patient and all will be revealed in the perfect time. As long as I can remember, I've always wanted to be grown up. I want my own home, my own wife and kids, a real job, fun cars. Here I am, getting closer, and now that it's almost here, I don't know what I want anymore. I think the pessimist in me wants to be alone forever, be that mysterious guy down the road that everybody wonders about. Sometimes I think I could accomplish more for the Lord if I didn't distract myself with a family. If I try and step back to take a wide angle view of my life and how eternally insignificant every decision I make every day is, everything starts to seem pointless. I'm reasonably sure that I'm afraid of my future. What if it doesn't turn out the way I wanted? What if I do end up married and it turns out unpleasant? What if I marry the wrong girl and screw up God's plan? It's beginning to seem like the what if?'s could kill a person. Leave him hiding in the corner, afraid to make any decision, afraid of the consequences. What if I mess this up, how many lives will it affect? It's scary. Some days I wish I could go through life without thinking too much. I already have a simple mind, but I think simpler would be better. Indecision can leave a life fruitless. It seems the more I try and follow the Lord, the more difficult and confusing things get. Is Satan trying to cloud my vision? Am I just not diligent enough? Becoming a man of God isn't an easy process. Holiness doesn't just happen one day. Or maybe it does and I just haven't figured it out yet. I'll work on this and report back.


posted by dave @ 8:36 PM


7.26.2007
 
blessings, trials, grace, etc.
I realized today that when you are faithful, God showers blessings on you! It's been so long since I've been so dedicated that I'd forgotten all about it! It feels so cool to want to learn and to look forward to my lunch break, not because I'm hungry and want my nap, [well, those are true also, but to a lesser extent] but because I want to read my Bible. Like I'm excited to find what new wisdom I've been ignoring all these years. All I had to do was ask, and be patient. [I didn't do so good on the patience part, but we'll not dwell on that] Then one day, God's like "Hey dave, it's time! Here you go!" It feels so good to have prayers that have been repeated for so long to finally be answered! [well, answered in a way that I can understand. I'm pretty sure had I been listening, I would have heard somethin along the lines of "Give it time." But who wants to wait?] Another thing I noticed is that with the outpouring of blessings, and me trying to be faithful, Satan likes to make his presence known. Like "Are you sure you don't wanna do that anymore? It is really cool and fun and totally not a sin. You know you want to." And I just gotta remember to tell to talk to my Father. "Sin? Temptation? Oh, that's God's department. It's his power I'm borrowing anyway." Then you can tell Satan you know his future. [you know, the fire and whatnot] And that you'd rather not join him there, you'd much prefer Heaven and God's presence. See if that doesn't get some trials thrown your way. But isn't that what being a follower is all about? Having it be pure joy to suffer for Christ? Man, I wish I could always have that perspective. In the end, it's all about God's grace, cause I should be totally afraid of death and the consequences of my actions, were it not for God's grace. I'm a fan of God's grace!!


posted by dave @ 4:39 PM


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