basking in the warm glow of a winter retreat...

I enjoyed it, despite the disturbing lack of Deen representation and the disappointing lack of snow. I didn't get the oppertunity to loft Ashley into the snow. I was kinda looking forward to that. And maybe a possible fire. We kinda made up for that with the silly string fire that broke out when Paul got out his lighter at about 2:30 Sunday morning. Overall tho, it was pretty sweet. Lots of learning and worshipping and repentence. It was encouraging to find out that I'm not alone in my sin. Not like yay, my brothers sin, but that it's not just me. Maybe we can do the strength in numbers thing and get better. I think that was the most encouraging thing. Maybe that and me laying in the back of my truck doing a devotional. I was laying on my back praying, and the sun was so bright. Like it felt like it was inches from my face. Then I was reading in Revelation that someday God's glory will light the world. [or something to that effect] And I was like wow, if the sun is this intense and it's like a kabillion miles away, and God's hair is like bigger than our universe...I think His glory might be like freakin huge and intense and like wow. Yeah. Amazing. I'm looking through my eyelids at the sun and it's this huge intense redorange that I can't escape as hard as I shut my eyes. And that's like a little speck of nothing next to God's hair. Wow. He's kinda freakin huge. And last week at the Jam winterfest I learnt somethin from that Effin kid when we were sittin talking late at night. Remember that couple in the Bible who sold their land and gave only part of the profits to the church and told them that it was all the profits? As I recall it was like kablam, they're dead. All they did was tell a little lie. Howcome God's so merciful with me? I do more than lie every day. That in itself is amazing. Wow. Wow. Wow. And He loves me so very much. And I'm just this kid who spits in his face like 50 times a day. But He persistently persues me. I feel very small right about now. The God, Creator of the Universe, Master of everything, wants my company. He wants to hear from me all the time. He wants to help me through all the problems I have. Wow.

posted by dave @ 5:22 PM