nothin profound here.

Not much happening around here these days. That'd be my fault though. Still reorganizing my life. Kindof a long project. Sposta be the first snow on Tuesday. That should be cool. [weather is always a good subject to change to, everybody knows something about that.] I sure am enjoying my Autumn. It's my favorite season. By far. How can anything compare to the beauty of the colors? Well, I suppose the snow on the bare trees is a close second. 'Course then there's the rolling prairies in the Summer. When was the last time you just went for a walk? I did that today. It was pretty cool. Trying to clear my mind and put stuff into a better perspective, I walked around for about an hour. The scenery at my Aunt's house is interesting. The trees and everything are so pretty, but peppered into the beauty is the remains of all my projects out there. A time line of the last ten years of my life can be found out there. There's junk back there dating back to junior high. The collapsed fort from early high school. The riding lawnmower with the flame job from senior year. The Dart from my college years. Part of me wants to pick up and move my life somewhere far away, leaving all that back here. Go live in the hills out west somewhere. Have myself a yellow lab to ride in my beat up old pickup on the dirt roads. The other part of me wants to go through all the junk lying everywhere in my life and fix it all, as if that will change the direction of my future. Maybe if I was busy fixing things and being constructive, I would be distracted from something. I'm not really sure what I'm trying to distract myself from. I must be doing a pretty good job. Seems I'm just killing time till I die. I need something to do. Why should my life follow the formula for lives? Seems like I should be out in the world by now, not living in my parents' basement accompishing nothing. I think all it comes down to is that I need a place to call my own. Hah, yeah, I'll get right on that.

posted by dave @ 9:06 PM