8.28.2005
 
What is it about this that's so amazing?
[by this, I mean this] [you're gonna hafta right click and save it, angelfire's stupid]

It's not that technically difficult...the tone isn't out of the ordinary...I dunno. It just like speaks or somethin tho...it's not your typical blues lines, it's almost like he's speaking his thoughts through his guitar. I like it. Why can't I do that?

Anyway, not much goin on over here. Family's gone for the weekend, so it's real quiet again...I managed to sleep in until 1pm today. That was nice. I haven't done that in awhile. Like not even stir until 1. I did go to bed at like 3am or something, but still. I haven't slept that soundly in a long time. Weird dreams tho. Who knows, my imagination is crazy. Sometimes the crazy ones come true tho, that's the scary part.

I don't have anything profound to say today. Not that I ever do, but just making sure you don't get disappointed later. I bought a car last week. 1985 Buick LeSabre. It's basically a repeat of my chalkboard car. Beater 80's GM. The part that sucks tho is that it definately doesn't have the engine in it that the seller told me it had. I was under the impression that it was a 350ci Buick motor. Or at least a 350 something. Nope, definately a 307 Olds. Same junk that was in the black car. Perfect, somethin to burn more oil than gas, have no power and not pass emissions. It needs some work, but it looks like it should be an ok daily driver. I might just sell it to my sister and get me a pickemup truck. That'd be fun. A 70something GM. Can't lose. [even tho I always end up losing when it comes to cars] Whatever. I need to like do other things with my life than play with cars all the time. [cars bore the ladies] hah. [that's not a big problem when you mostly hang out with guys] Doesn't matter. I've figured out that the kind of ladies I'd like to attract wouldn't be attracted by a car anyway. So it all works out in the end.

Man, Stevie Ray Vaughn was a freakin musical genius or somethin. Still listenin to him. You should too. And not just the stuff they play on the radio. Go find some of his softer stuff. It's like total relaxation music. Perfect for just sittin back and blogging. Or reading blogs. Or reading anything for that matter. And I've run out of thoughts. Too much on my mind, that must be it.


posted by dave @ 7:25 PM


8.12.2005
 
a post for Emma. [cause she asked for one]
So yeah, definately bored. I prolly coulda gone to Praise in the Park, but then they would have wanted me to help out with the sound stuff, and I've got enough of that coming in the next two weeks, thanks. Not much has happened. My boss doesn't hate me quite as much anymore, I'm not sure why. I'm not gonna argue tho. Maybe he was having a few bad days in a row. Dunno. Doesn't much matter. Work's ok these days, nothing happens, the boss leaves early, then I leave early. Works out pretty well I think. It's tiring tho. Mostly physical labor, starting at 7:30 in the morning, 6 days a week. Maybe it'll be good for me or something. I hate not being able to go out at night tho. If I'm not sleeping by 11, then tomorrow's gonna suck. And most everything interesting starts at like 10, so...

I went out and bought a cd yesterday. Yeah! Actually paid 15$ for a cd! First time in more than a year. It was worth it tho. Chapter V, the long awaited new Staind cd. It's pretty good I think. I'd recommend it to anyone who likes their style.

My family's out of town this week. It kinda sucks. It's so quiet. Kinda alonely. They've been gone since like friday or saturday, and they won't be back to sunday or monday or something. It's making this week kinda boring. Every day's the same: get up freakin early, go to work, go home, watch movie on my compy or something, then go to sleep. Kinda makes me want to do something with my life. One of the guys I work with is in his 50's, working hourly at a little shop making not much more than me. He rents a room on a farm out in Aurora and commutes all the way to Villa Park in his 200$ Neon. As far as I can tell, he's single and spends most of his free time either fixing up his room or watching his new satellite tv. Sounds like somethin to look forward to, huh? I now see the kind of future awaiting me. Not really lookin forward to it anymore. Being a crotchety old guy working at a shop with nothing to do and no family? Doesn't sound like fun to me. I think I'd go crazy living like that. I'm pretty sure I'm the kinda guy who needs the support of a family and stuff...I dunno. I'll let you know how my life turns out.

Wow, looking back, that whole post makes me sound really depressed. I'm really not, honest.

College group last night was enjoyable. I liked it. Grant made like relevant points and stuff. I like it when he does that. It was good to see people again. Definately looking forward to tomorrow night when I get to hang out with the seniors again. That's gonna be cool. Maybe they can help open up the college group a little. I think it's great at welcoming new people, but I think sometimes it's lacking in the encouraging the people who are there on and off and stuff. Or even the people who are there all the time. It's one thing to say hi and make the idle conversation. [I hate small talk, it sucks] I think we need to make an effort to really try and genuinely listen to people and like make them feel like you're interested in what they're saying. And like ask questions and stuff. Make real conversation. Wait, didn't I say all of this before? And didn't Grant say it on more than one occasion? Yeah, lets like do it and stuff. It makes for real friendships and trust and cool stuff like that. Do I repeat myself too much? Probably.

I was like saving money this last month. It was kinda cool, it's the first time I've saved money and it's actually worked. But then I spent a lot of it on tools. While I was spending my hard earned money on cheap tools, it occured to me how screwed up we are. We work hard to get this paper that the government says is worth something, then give that to someone else for something that won't satisfy us. There's always something better. Or if there isn't, the one you have is a disappointment. Despite my best efforts, I haven't found happiness in my stuff. Or my money. It could be that I don't have enough of either...but then I see people with more who are even more dissatisfied than I am. Usually I'm a pretty greedy, selfish guy, but on the rare occasion I find my self, for some reason, being generous, it makes me happier than a whole month's stuff and money did. I was thinking again today. What do we aspire to? A good eduacation? A good job? To what end? Money? Happiness? Maybe. Personally, I think having a college degree is overrated. So is having a job, and having money. As far as I know, we were not put here to try and make ourselves happy. I think we waste a heckofalot of time on stupid crap. I wish I could take the fact that the Lord will provide seriously. Like really believe it wholeheartedly. I still have too much pride and too little trust tho. Maybe eventually. Somehow Jesus managed to survive without a job for a long time. I don't remember anything about him having a lot of money or being worried about money either. 'Course I have no idea what I'm talking about, but I think I might actually have a point or something. I think we're called to lead others to Christ...so what are we doing wasting our time going to college and trying to make money and stuff? I'm probably thinking like way too idealistically, but that's how I am. What if we all quit our jobs and our schools and like totally trusted the Lord for everything and just went around witnessing to people? Would it work? It would be totally against everything we've been taught by the world, but it might work. I dunno. Am I just a dreamy-eyed idiot?


posted by dave @ 7:38 PM


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