hurting sucks.

You know what sucks? Yeah, you know cause the title telled you. Hurting people then realizing what you've done/are doing. That's the worst. Memo to self: think before speak. Hah, not gonna happen. That involves more computational power than I am currently capable of. My mind is like a dryer full of socks that are all different colors and are sticking together. I think some of them got shredded too. Not sure, that'd involve thinking. I can't think straight. English paper this, solving equations that, C#m over Q? Is that even possible? Q's not a note! Bah. For some reason, the only stuff that doesn't get jumbled in my mind at the moment is cars and their numbers. Crazy, isn't it? And you people don't get it when I talk about them, so that leaves me without stuff to talk about. That's ok, I usually have plenty of problems to write about. I need to be clear when I do things. I leave too much stuff open for interpreation. That's ok in like photo and music stuff...but not talking. Stupidly obvious is the way to go. I learned this through the process of elimination. People get all confused when I try to talk smart-like. Or they miss my point. Everything in this life is meaningless. The Newsboys song "Lost the Plot" comes to mind. [take me to your leader, from way back in the day] Hmm, now that I listen to that song, it has nothing to do with what I was talkin about. Owell, good song nonetheless. I'm so tired of doin the same school crap everyday. Add that to the fact that almost nobody really understands me, and you get a pretty crappy answer. I know this seems like a huge contrast from other posts, but who even cares. This is what I'm thinkin right now, so this is what gets posted. Today really sucked. I hurt the feelings of a friend cause I was really really stupid and she forgave me anyway and tried to make me feel better by sayin like she was too uptight or something like that. That just made me feel worse. [not to shoot down her effort, she definately meant well] How can I say such stupid stuff? Howcome only bad things slip out, never good things? How cool would it be to just blurt something and say something really nice? I guess it might have somethin to do with the whole your mouth is the overflow of your heart deal. Well, if my heart is full of bitterness and bad stuff, then how could I blurt somethin good, or for that matter, say anything even remotely nice that I really meant? Time for some thought and hopefully fixing of brain.



dave's car of the post: Dave thinks he glorifies cars way too much. He needs a new life. No car today. If he was smart and well read in the scriptures, then he could spout a Dave's Verse of the Post, but he's not, so deal with it. Comment a fitting verse for him.

posted by dave @ 7:42 PM